Approaching 40

I've been thinking a lot lately about my upcoming birthday - the big 4-0. I have several friends who have passed this milestone recently and they appear to be thriving. I guess I am thriving too, but I certainly have a good deal of analyzing and reflecting and wondering going on. At times it feels like what they call a mid-life crisis, but when I take a closer look, there really is no crisis, which makes it feel more like a crisis. Where's the crisis that I'm supposed to be having?! Of course I really don't want a crisis. I just feel like I need to be prepared for one. So I'm working out all of my latest contingency plans for anything that could possibly go wrong. The way I work, I am ready and willing to edit my plans as/if needed. I just conjur them up so I can feel like I at least have a starting point should such crisis arrive at my door. I allow that I really can't anticipate how I will react in the moment, so I am okay if I need to revise my plan. In the midst of all this crisis thinking, I am also looking back at what I've accomplished (with God's help) in my 39 years, and it's not bad. Here are some of the highlights (in random order):

• ran a 5K
• started taking Taekwando lessons
• married 11 years
• two wonderful children
• earned master's degree
• travelled to Europe several times
• own a home
• have many good friendships that have lasted over the years
• maintain a good relationship with my parents and family
• started a blog and write in it occasionally

Of course there are more, but these feel good to me right now. I'll work on setting some goals for my 40's.