Thursday, February 26, 2009

Good Morning

I woke up early this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. I didn't try very hard, actually. I am grateful to have been given this new day and all of the opportunities it affords.

On my agenda for today is to go get a drug screen as part of my new part-time job that looks like I might actually have soon. We have an additional day of training next Thursday. I can't remember if I blogged about this job or not, so I will provide more info about it later if I haven't.

Also today I am supposed to meet with the interim director of the Raleigh Convocation Choir, which recently formed, and of which I am a member. We're supposed to talk about the future/direction of this choir among other things. It's fun to be a part of the group, but I did receive some feedback from someone at church last night that it shouldn't be called the RCC if people from over the convocation didn't have an opportunity to at least audition. I didn't defend the choir, just said I'd pass on the feedback at my lunch today. I can see both sides. The idea was to start with a core group of singers whose voices were known to the director and then expand with auditions from churches within the convocation (greater Raleigh area). But from the outside, when you first hear of this, the feeling is that the choir is exclusive. I must admit I've been reluctant to talk about it with my church choir friends because I don't want them to feel bad. Thus, I've contributed to the problem. Oh well. I'll give it to God to iron out.

Later this afternoon, it's the science fair at J's school. He and a friend worked together this year. I am thrilled that this boy called to ask J to work with him. Furthermore, all the work was completed at his house! We will see what the judges think when we go by the school tonight. Tomorrow this friend will come home with J after school and stay through supper. I'm glad to see him making a new close friend.

It's the second day of Lent, and as a good Episcopalian, I am trying to be more self-disciplined than usual as I prepare for Easter. (I have a lot of room to go in the self-discipline category!) I think I will actually go and take my shower now before the kids wake up. I usually don't get to that until later in the day if the shower does indeed occur on a given day.

I hope you have a good day.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I'm still here

I just haven't blogged lately. It seems I can't come up with a topic about which to write whenever I think about blogging. So I don't do it. Today's entry isn't about anything in particular. It's a cold and wet day - very conducive for a nap. So far I'm not giving in to that temptation, however. I will go and do some laundry in a bit. I will make a meatloaf this afternoon for supper. I will get my things together to direct the children's choir tonight.

See - now I don't know what else to say.

Perhaps a nice cup of coffee would help.

The kids are doing well. It's never boring around here at all. It just gets really annoying sometimes with all the high-pitched squeals and increased volume in the house. I sure do love them, though. And overall they get along very well. That pleases me so much.

As always, I am grateful for everything that has gone right in my life. And for what hasn't, as I'd like to believe I am stronger for those not-right things. Guilt comes easily to me, and I don't think it is a healthy or helpful emotion. So I try to think through why I don't need to feel guilty. If I do need to feel guilty, I try to remedy what I've done wrong so I don't have to experience guilt about that anymore.

I'm quiet today. Not my typical M.O. Reflecting, pausing, accepting, just being.

But the pile of dirty laundry in my bedroom is about as tall as the bed. So it's time to take it to the basement. Then maybe I'll reward myself with a little snack. I'll consider eating something fairly healthy, too. I am actually hungry right now - my stomach is even growling. So I won't be eating simply as a reward. I'm just going to get some work done before I satisfy my hunger. And aren't I so lucky to have access to healthy food here in my house that I can eat when I'm hungry. God bless those who aren't so lucky.