Thursday, October 30, 2008

Dandruff

I've been composing this post in my head for a while now. It's something I want to "come clean" about, if you will: I have a dandruff problem.

So now that I've said that, there are some other things that come to mind related to that statement.
  1. Those of you who are close to me may already be aware that I have dandruff.
  2. If you already knew, you can stop worrying that I don't know about it, because I do.
  3. I have tried a variety of shampoos and conditioners for dandruff and other scalp-conditions.
  4. My dermatologist says that the best way to help it is to wash it every day.
  5. I don't want to change my lifestyle so that I have to wash my hair every day.
  6. The hair itself doesn't need to be washed every day. In fact, I think it's better for my hair not to wash it daily. It certainly is better for my daily living patterns, and of course uses less water.
  7. I also color my hair and pay a significant portion of my budget to do it. Medicated shampoos make the color fade faster. I'm not willing to stop coloring my hair at this point.
  8. The fall/winter seasons bring out my dark wardrobe. My coats are mostly brown or black. I like to wear turtlenecks of solid, dark colors.
  9. Thus, my white dandruff is going to be more noticeable during the cooler months.
  10. I know this sounds silly, but I want to make sure people still like me even though I have dandruff.
  11. I really want to be able to relax and not worry about whether my dandruff is showing or not. I spend so much time trying to get it off me so that no one will notice it.
  12. I want to be able to trust that others will not judge me for having dandruff.
  13. But since I can't control whether or not others will judge me or think unkindly of me, I want to be able to be at peace if/when others do judge me for having dandruff.
  14. I think dandruff is annoying and frustrating - and it really itches sometimes! But I don't want it to control what I feel comfortable doing. That is just not right.
  15. So there you have it. If you have never noticed it before, you'll probably find yourself checking me out the next time you see me to see if you can spot any flakes. Go ahead - I am the one who has called your attention to it. Just know that it presents a self-esteem issue for me and help me defeat what power dandruff has over me by loving me anyway (or at least putting up with me for the time being!)

3 comments:

Lynn said...

Well..........I never noticed. But shoot..........i'd love you if you had green hair, purple hair, spikes, dreadlocks or just a plain bald head. CONGRATS ON THE PUSHUPS!!!!!!!!

danielle Myers said...

i never noticed either. and i love you: dandruff or no dandruff. p.s. i have two nieces with hair that changes colors about as often as they change clothes. my love for them is not dependent on their hair. :)

Anonymous said...

Dandruff too will past! You made the pushups 8 days before B-day! More power to you!
M.