For the very first time since we moved into this house almost exactly 9 years ago, I will be spending the night alone here. James is out of town on business and the kids are in the mountains with my parents. It is a bit strange, but good. I called two different friends to see if I could arrange an evening out, but neither was available tonight. After the second said no, I decided I should just stay at home and make the most of the experience.
I arrived home by myself around 3:00 this afternoon. I met M&D at the Farmer's Market in Greensboro to hand over the kids, their packed belongings, and a few items requested by my parents for me to bring from Raleigh. I had a meeting with a fellow vestry member to discuss some timely church things from 4 to 5 and then came back home. I got to talk with James on the phone briefly, and then ate the leftover pizza in the fridge. It was way more than I needed, so my plan is to not eat any more tonight. I debated about taking myself to Taekwondo, but decided against it. I sat in the recliner to catch up on some reading and found myself taking a nap. After about 30 minutes, I woke up and was ready to read some more. I've been walking around, making a list of things to do tomorrow, drinking water and digesting my pizza.
I've checked in on Facebook, read my dad's blog, and sat down to blog a little myself. I saw where my Uncle Bill quoted someone on FB as saying, "You have nothing to prove and no one to impress." He said he had heard it recently and thought he'd pass it on in hopes it would provide encouragement to someone today. If no one else was encouraged, I certainly was.
I do spend a bunch of time thinking more about trying to impress other people than having something to prove, but sometimes that too. I like to think that I am above trying to impress others, but I'm really not. I guess it's okay if someone is impressed with something I say or do, as long as my intention for saying/doing it was genuine. Trying to impress someone else is not the reason I should be doing something.
What I was reading tonight was the book of James in the New Testament. "Be ye doers of the word and not just hearers..." That's the main point James tries to make, I believe. So tonight I am trying to figure out what I want to do with my time alone. What I do should not be to prove anything or to impress anyone. I am happy to have this unique opportunity tonight.